Thursday, July 7, 2011

Please step away from the sink

Lately things around here have seemed a little crazy,
and i have come to the conclusion that it is entirely my own doing that is becoming my undoing.
Have you ever been there? to that deep dark place where the laundry monster or the desire to create something amazing take over and turn you into a weird parallel person?
There are just so many things to do in the course of a day that it's easy to loose perspective.
And while all these things to do and thoughts and ideas are looking for a place to happen,
LIFE is swirling all around me, chubby cheeks and all.

Far too often i find myself preoccupied with my next blog post or project or photo op
or even my next load of laundry (yes, it is that bad) to realize.
I think about how i should be LIVING in the MOMENT, but the next second, bam,
i'm off onto the next thing and have abandoned the moment altogether.
It's difficult to have an attention span when there are so many things to pay attention to.

But here's the catch:  I like it.
I like constantly having a project on the go or a post percolating in my head
or a really cool idea that demands my attention; i like being busy and checking things off my to-do list.
These things wrench me away from the sometimes mundane business of being a mom.
I guess like anything else in life it's all about finding that balance, walking that fine line.

That sweet little thing that just peed on me?
the most amazing thing that ever happened and that he won't be like this for long,
these times are so fleeting....

Regardless of how often i tell myself that THIS is where it's at,
i still wonder if i'm doing enough, if i'll ever be able to fit it all in.
 I imagine this is something a lot of women (especially mothers) stuggle with - 
the desire need to be in twenty places at once, the drive to get everything done in a neat
 and orderly fashion and do everything for everyone.

Meanwhile, LIFE barfs all over our shoulder and pees on our hand,
 but we're too busy cleaning it up to notice.

So i am going to learn how to step away from the sink.
Ignore the piles of laundry and the photos that need to be edited and the dirty floors,
and take a step towards my Little bit and towards being a better mom.
Because i'm only his mommy this one time, and it won't be like this for long...

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

Absolutely inspiring Gillybean! You managed to put
into words what I have been grappling with for the
last 2+ years. I do so love all of the pictures on your
site. I am so happy for you, it sounds and looks like
you have truly found your joy.

Thanks for the inspiration!